Themes and Insights
The Prayer of the Repentant Spirit
The Burden of Pride and Arrogance: The piece explores how pride and self-deception lead to a life lived in a façade, impacting relationships with others and disconnecting the narrator from true humility and love.
Impact of Selfishness on Loved Ones: The prayer reflects a deep sorrow for how personal failings harm family, friends, and even adversaries, highlighting the ripple effects of one's inner darkness on others.
The Role of Divine Mercy: A call for divine mercy and grace underscores the narrator's realization that true restoration comes not from self-justification but from seeking forgiveness and showing mercy to others.
Surrender and Repentance as Renewal: The narrator’s act of surrender and repentance is presented as a transformative process, emphasizing how humility and acknowledgment of wrongdoing can lead to spiritual rebirth and alignment with divine will.
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The Prayer of the Repentant Spirit
It has been said that a poet’s job is to write what is in the minds of the people. Indeed every important document throughout history is in many ways that very thing. This time, however, it is important for me to write what is not usually in the forefront of our minds. This time I must write what many of us try to ignore, what we try to dismiss, what we hope and pray is not true… about us. The only way I can present that portion is from my very own life.
The Prayer of the Repentant Spirit
Father in Heaven
Give ear to Your servant
Turn not away from my sorrow
Nor pass over my plea for Your aid
Inside my soul is great tumult
Where my heart and mind are split
Between the spirit of Your son
And the rage of the animal
All the days of my life have I sought peace openly
Yet did I give ear also to war
All the paths I have explored were in seeking you
Yet did I also embrace bitterness and vengeance
I have presented to man that which they require of me
While my own pride and arrogance has judged
I have displayed the light I have seen
Before the eyes of men
While hiding the darkness I feel
From all who have loved me
I have spoken the words of Forgiveness
And in the moments of your grace did feel its reward
Yet my heart returned to the ways of anger for my brothers
And in the secret places I did hide that hatred
And in the hidden cavern
I kept alive the fire of my cursing
I have spoken the words of Honesty
And in the moments of your grace did receive its reward
Yet in my heart was my pride
And in my mind did I enjoy that pride
And in the clenching of my fist I kept alive
The bloody liar
Even in the knowing of the great truth of humility
Did my flesh instead desire a greater magnitude
And when it suited my cause I did expand
And when it suited my cause I did retract
I have carved a graven image of myself
And fell down and worshipped that image
And practiced the black magic of self hypnotism
By the very mantra of my thoughts
By the example of those who have truly been victims of horrors
And by the example of those who have truly embraced humility
I can find no greater enemy in my life
Than my very own self
Even though I bury this fact even from myself
Yet in any room of my brethren do I proclaim myself
To be greater than them all in secret
So cunning and powerful had my will become
That even the consequences delivered to me
Could not sway me from my desire to hold onto fear
To expound the lie
To protect the self importance
To deny the truth of responsibility
Even in my fall did I proclaim myself to fall as a warrior!
As the Judge I did place myself above the Law
As the Victim I did require vain mercy
Yet truly only mercy can restore.
For now my eyes see the lesson I refused to learn
That my enemy pays the price of my arrogance
And my friend suffers because of my pride
And my loved ones lack because of my truth
And my family
My beautiful family
How much they have endured because of the darkness in me!
To this that very place
I cry out finally without self-lust
But instead for the lives of those around me
Because it is true that my family has loved me
And my loved ones have given their faith to me
And my friends have placed their trust in me
And it is also true that my enemies once gave ear to me
Trying to build a bridge within their thoughts
Before they turned away
And I have found the horrible place I tried so hard to disguise
That in my heart I cannot bare the suffering of others
At my own hands
By my own arrogance
Because of my own self-righteousness
Through the very fact that I trusted in darkness
More than light
Because I listened to the knowledge and agreed
And in this I find no more solution
So I now fall to my knees
In honor of those I love
And in honor of those I have hated
And in honor of they who hate me
That they may be repaid in mercy and kindness
That their lives may be blessed in all of their days
I give to You Father all my rage and ignorance
Even these that are my self importance
And self reliance
For what am I without You?
Knowing always no man can overcome himself
Without the grace of God within him
And the love of God guiding him
My heart cries out
Because in your wisdom
You did show me an innocent soul in another
I relent and surrender and repent
May your Way and your Will
Live on in these bones
And live on ever more
Within the spirit
Ryan o0o
The Prayer of the Repentant Spirit
It has been said that a poet’s job is to write what is in the minds of the people. Indeed every important document throughout history is in many ways that very thing. This time, however, it is important for me to write what is not usually in the forefront of our minds. This time I must write what many of us try to ignore, what we try to dismiss, what we hope and pray is not true… about us. The only way I can present that portion is from my very own life.
The Prayer of the Repentant Spirit
Father in Heaven
Give ear to Your servant
Turn not away from my sorrow
Nor pass over my plea for Your aid
Inside my soul is great tumult
Where my heart and mind are split
Between the spirit of Your son
And the rage of the animal
All the days of my life have I sought peace openly
Yet did I give ear also to war
All the paths I have explored were in seeking you
Yet did I also embrace bitterness and vengeance
I have presented to man that which they require of me
While my own pride and arrogance has judged
I have displayed the light I have seen
Before the eyes of men
While hiding the darkness I feel
From all who have loved me
I have spoken the words of Forgiveness
And in the moments of your grace did feel its reward
Yet my heart returned to the ways of anger for my brothers
And in the secret places I did hide that hatred
And in the hidden cavern
I kept alive the fire of my cursing
I have spoken the words of Honesty
And in the moments of your grace did receive its reward
Yet in my heart was my pride
And in my mind did I enjoy that pride
And in the clenching of my fist I kept alive
The bloody liar
Even in the knowing of the great truth of humility
Did my flesh instead desire a greater magnitude
And when it suited my cause I did expand
And when it suited my cause I did retract
I have carved a graven image of myself
And fell down and worshipped that image
And practiced the black magic of self hypnotism
By the very mantra of my thoughts
By the example of those who have truly been victims of horrors
And by the example of those who have truly embraced humility
I can find no greater enemy in my life
Than my very own self
Even though I bury this fact even from myself
Yet in any room of my brethren do I proclaim myself
To be greater than them all in secret
So cunning and powerful had my will become
That even the consequences delivered to me
Could not sway me from my desire to hold onto fear
To expound the lie
To protect the self importance
To deny the truth of responsibility
Even in my fall did I proclaim myself to fall as a warrior!
As the Judge I did place myself above the Law
As the Victim I did require vain mercy
Yet truly only mercy can restore.
For now my eyes see the lesson I refused to learn
That my enemy pays the price of my arrogance
And my friend suffers because of my pride
And my loved ones lack because of my truth
And my family
My beautiful family
How much they have endured because of the darkness in me!
To this that very place
I cry out finally without self-lust
But instead for the lives of those around me
Because it is true that my family has loved me
And my loved ones have given their faith to me
And my friends have placed their trust in me
And it is also true that my enemies once gave ear to me
Trying to build a bridge within their thoughts
Before they turned away
And I have found the horrible place I tried so hard to disguise
That in my heart I cannot bare the suffering of others
At my own hands
By my own arrogance
Because of my own self-righteousness
Through the very fact that I trusted in darkness
More than light
Because I listened to the knowledge and agreed
And in this I find no more solution
So I now fall to my knees
In honor of those I love
And in honor of those I have hated
And in honor of they who hate me
That they may be repaid in mercy and kindness
That their lives may be blessed in all of their days
I give to You Father all my rage and ignorance
Even these that are my self importance
And self reliance
For what am I without You?
Knowing always no man can overcome himself
Without the grace of God within him
And the love of God guiding him
My heart cries out
Because in your wisdom
You did show me an innocent soul in another
I relent and surrender and repent
May your Way and your Will
Live on in these bones
And live on ever more
Within the spirit
Ryan o0o
Themes and Insights
The Prayer of the Repentant Spirit
The Burden of Pride and Arrogance: The piece explores how pride and self-deception lead to a life lived in a façade, impacting relationships with others and disconnecting the narrator from true humility and love.
Impact of Selfishness on Loved Ones: The prayer reflects a deep sorrow for how personal failings harm family, friends, and even adversaries, highlighting the ripple effects of one's inner darkness on others.
The Role of Divine Mercy: A call for divine mercy and grace underscores the narrator's realization that true restoration comes not from self-justification but from seeking forgiveness and showing mercy to others.
Surrender and Repentance as Renewal: The narrator’s act of surrender and repentance is presented as a transformative process, emphasizing how humility and acknowledgment of wrongdoing can lead to spiritual rebirth and alignment with divine will.
The Prayer of the Repentant Spirit
It has been said that a poet’s job is to write what is in the minds of the people. Indeed every important document throughout history is in many ways that very thing. This time, however, it is important for me to write what is not usually in the forefront of our minds. This time I must write what many of us try to ignore, what we try to dismiss, what we hope and pray is not true… about us. The only way I can present that portion is from my very own life.
The Prayer of the Repentant Spirit
Father in Heaven
Give ear to Your servant
Turn not away from my sorrow
Nor pass over my plea for Your aid
Inside my soul is great tumult
Where my heart and mind are split
Between the spirit of Your son
And the rage of the animal
All the days of my life have I sought peace openly
Yet did I give ear also to war
All the paths I have explored were in seeking you
Yet did I also embrace bitterness and vengeance
I have presented to man that which they require of me
While my own pride and arrogance has judged
I have displayed the light I have seen
Before the eyes of men
While hiding the darkness I feel
From all who have loved me
I have spoken the words of Forgiveness
And in the moments of your grace did feel its reward
Yet my heart returned to the ways of anger for my brothers
And in the secret places I did hide that hatred
And in the hidden cavern
I kept alive the fire of my cursing
I have spoken the words of Honesty
And in the moments of your grace did receive its reward
Yet in my heart was my pride
And in my mind did I enjoy that pride
And in the clenching of my fist I kept alive
The bloody liar
Even in the knowing of the great truth of humility
Did my flesh instead desire a greater magnitude
And when it suited my cause I did expand
And when it suited my cause I did retract
I have carved a graven image of myself
And fell down and worshipped that image
And practiced the black magic of self hypnotism
By the very mantra of my thoughts
By the example of those who have truly been victims of horrors
And by the example of those who have truly embraced humility
I can find no greater enemy in my life
Than my very own self
Even though I bury this fact even from myself
Yet in any room of my brethren do I proclaim myself
To be greater than them all in secret
So cunning and powerful had my will become
That even the consequences delivered to me
Could not sway me from my desire to hold onto fear
To expound the lie
To protect the self importance
To deny the truth of responsibility
Even in my fall did I proclaim myself to fall as a warrior!
As the Judge I did place myself above the Law
As the Victim I did require vain mercy
Yet truly only mercy can restore.
For now my eyes see the lesson I refused to learn
That my enemy pays the price of my arrogance
And my friend suffers because of my pride
And my loved ones lack because of my truth
And my family
My beautiful family
How much they have endured because of the darkness in me!
To this that very place
I cry out finally without self-lust
But instead for the lives of those around me
Because it is true that my family has loved me
And my loved ones have given their faith to me
And my friends have placed their trust in me
And it is also true that my enemies once gave ear to me
Trying to build a bridge within their thoughts
Before they turned away
And I have found the horrible place I tried so hard to disguise
That in my heart I cannot bare the suffering of others
At my own hands
By my own arrogance
Because of my own self-righteousness
Through the very fact that I trusted in darkness
More than light
Because I listened to the knowledge and agreed
And in this I find no more solution
So I now fall to my knees
In honor of those I love
And in honor of those I have hated
And in honor of they who hate me
That they may be repaid in mercy and kindness
That their lives may be blessed in all of their days
I give to You Father all my rage and ignorance
Even these that are my self importance
And self reliance
For what am I without You?
Knowing always no man can overcome himself
Without the grace of God within him
And the love of God guiding him
My heart cries out
Because in your wisdom
You did show me an innocent soul in another
I relent and surrender and repent
May your Way and your Will
Live on in these bones
And live on ever more
Within the spirit
Ryan o0o
Themes and Insights
The Prayer of the Repentant Spirit
The Burden of Pride and Arrogance: The piece explores how pride and self-deception lead to a life lived in a façade, impacting relationships with others and disconnecting the narrator from true humility and love.
Impact of Selfishness on Loved Ones: The prayer reflects a deep sorrow for how personal failings harm family, friends, and even adversaries, highlighting the ripple effects of one's inner darkness on others.
The Role of Divine Mercy: A call for divine mercy and grace underscores the narrator's realization that true restoration comes not from self-justification but from seeking forgiveness and showing mercy to others.
Surrender and Repentance as Renewal: The narrator’s act of surrender and repentance is presented as a transformative process, emphasizing how humility and acknowledgment of wrongdoing can lead to spiritual rebirth and alignment with divine will.
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