God in Heaven, Most Beautiful and Gracious,
We thank You for this life of steadfast Abundance and Possibility.

I come before the throne of Your perfection this day to practice a new level of courage and intent for which I have not shown before. It is my intent to open the gates of my inner thoughts outward, and pour out my heart upon the land of my brothers. In quietness I have prayed many years in the secret places within. Today I wish to amend this action not for the purpose of exposing myself, but rather for the purpose of exposing more of You onto the will of man.

Most all of my life, those who I have known have known also of my love for the very idea of You, the idea of God. In life’s journey I have travelled from a place of imposed fearful worship, to a time of outright rebellion, to another time of Your grace, and still another time where this man has touched Your very clothes. I have tasted the bitter and the sweet of the earth. She has yielded the lessons of man from isolation, to deep brotherhood, and now even heavenly eros love. There were times my own mind ruled the very works of my hand. There were times my own heart ruled the very works of my hand. There were times when only the animal in me lived, and times when only the spirit there felt light. As you know Father, each and every step of this journey has been for the very same purpose from the beginning.

There during my darkest hours, and during the greatest moments of light, You have always been. There during restlessness and during peace my spirit has dwelled upon You. There even while in my youth I laid flat on the floor in drunkenness did I find my mind calling out to You. There in the days of sitting beside great rivers did I seek You also. There in each moment this Idea of God has been companion to this journey of Life. In times of denial did I still rage on about the illogic of all man’s ideas of God. In times of spiritual expansion, was still within me the blessing of this thought of God.

Many have said to be quiet and still and listen in meditation. But questions still linger and nothing can shut that door of my everlasting devotion to discovery of who and what You are. Never have I argued against the tooth fairy, but I have argued against You, for evermore there You were still, needing explanation in me. That which I am bound too does not release me from my denial or my acceptance.

I am bound to You Father, in ways completely unimaginable to me. Yet this bond has not been overlooked for its merit and significance.

I have called you Dad, for it is the most suitable name that I can muster for You Great Father. It brings to me joy, peace, comfort, serenity, humility, choice, ability, and reverence for all that which is yet still beyond my own grasp.

Let it be known to us both Father that in these words there is no reward I seek for myself. The rewards of life you have bestowed upon me in nourishing abundance. May instead the rewards of anything shared be given to others of your choosing. There is no reverence or understanding or closeness or secret agenda for which I hope to gain. You have already shown me that all my heart desires personally is answered. Therefore I set my desires towards the faces of the people of Earth who may this day be seeking also.

Awaken the sleeper who does not remember their soverenty. May it be that they find love inside their bones in enough to give unto all.

Bless the children who have yet to find direction for their lives, but wish to know of the path that would fulfill their yearnings.

Give ear to the stumbling man that cannot stand upon his own anymore, who falls into pits of despair and sickness. Offer to him a moment of strength and truth, so that he may set his foot upon a new path as many before him have done when touched by You.

Bless the families who face struggle with their lives, that they may see in their losses there is potential for them all to come together again and find the bonds of familial love. May it be that Fathers are thoughtful of their children and wives. May it be that Mothers are given the resources to comfort their family. May it be that children feel joy at the faces of their parents love for them.

Father, arouse again in lovers the desire they once had for each other. Let those who are falling away from their mates become touched again in their heart to give without condition of their love. May they find again that sacred place of erotic unity and special blessing between only them. Give to them the moments of charitable grace they once gave to each other, so that in feeling such things they may again desire to restore their loss.

Bless all those who have been our teachers, great and small. Those who express love have shown many variances of loves power and limitlessness. Those who express hate help us to desire even greater love. May those who express love be shown the fruit of their labors. May those who express hate be shown love in such a manner that they cannot dismiss its truth, and therefore find their heart softening to its waters.

In a world that speaks so often about how it has forgotten You, it remembers You by doing so. In a world that fights against those who fight against You, do they forget You have no enemy. Even so, in it all there are so many in every day who are conscious of their love for this Idea of You… the Idea of God. May those who feel Your truth be not alone in their worlds, but find brothers and sisters of like mind and cause. May those who do not know You yet seek, find others who also seek, so together they become a family of love. May those who do not wish to know You become familiar with a new idea of You, an idea they can accept and touch that does not threaten their individuality.

Dad, may it be that people find forgiveness of their enemies. May it be Father that this lesson of olden days be given a new logic and new foundational thought for which people may embrace an understanding that comes to light in them.

With passion Father, remove the sour grapes from the hands of those who feed them to others, and put into their hands the fruit of love, which IS life, and which is the cornerstone of the Universe. May it be that this sensation awaken them again to their own youth which derived freedom and harmony by its very nature in the beginning.

I have seen so many who with that passion wish to offer peace, grace, unity, service, and humanity unto the world in honesty. Please make straight their paths on their journey. Remove the stumbling blocks others place in front of them, encourage their steps, free up their troubles, and strengthen the message in them that they carry for you. Let their voices be heard strongly, so that the voices of those who offer fear may be quieted.

In all things Father, whatever it is that you will upon man this day, May it be.

Your son always.

Ryan o0o