We ARE going to have our hearts broken, so let no moment of your truth be hidden. Tell them how you feel, put it all out there, hold back nothing, keep not your voice silent of your love. For not one of us gets to decide when we shall be torn apart and when we shall be accepted. Both will happen regardless of our choices. We too are going to break hearts.

We ARE going to be harmed by others, so let no moment of who you are be hidden. Others will call us names, lie to us, betray us, wound us, ridicule and judge with extreme prejudice, and break every word they said. It will happen in our lives. It is unavoidable. The good and the bad, both shall dishonour our lives at times. Not one is above failure and wrath, regardless of how much they are loved or how much they love us. Withhold nothing and accept this… for it makes us free. Keep loving anyway, for all resistance and avoidance ages us into nothingness and rots our bones into fear

We ARE going to face death of those we love. We have no choice at all in this matter. We can protect and defend, we can keep safe and lock away, and still we will not add one day to another’s life. It is not ours to control. This we should not fear, for it is inevitable and it comes as a thief without warning and without measure and without concern of our feelings. Love fully, embrace every moment, soak in what is good and what is joyful and what is wonderful. Accept death and we are free of death, for he becomes an ally who reminds us to live in every moment. The fear of death insures we are dead while we are yet alive. Throw it away and respect life and limb with wisdom. For recklessness makes life painful as we live, but wisdom sees the way without fear so that we enjoy another day without required healing because of our thoughtlessness. But death itself has its own time, and we cannot negotiate it.

We ARE going to lie and cheat and steal and do everything we hate. Even the humble have done so, just as the wicked. For not one of us has been without fear, and fear is the master of all mankind, above man and without equal. No man is greater than fear, and fear WILL destroy us and cause us to do all manner of terrible things until we admit it and let go of it for the acceptance of truth. We are the prey of fear and not one who has lived has not felt its teeth.

We ARE going to fail and to lose in EVERY area of our lives. Not one area of our life is safe from failure. It will happen. Not one area of our life is safe from loss. These things will happen, and we will lose friends and possessions and sanity and loved ones and security and everything that can be had will be taken at some point and given back again. We cannot control this, for this is as the tides and as the universe breaths. We gain and we lose, and all things change or they die. To live is to lose and gain and lose again. To live is to die and be reborn and to die again. Let nothing deter you from reality, so that you may rise up when you fall knowing that strength comes after weakness and weakness comes just before we are given greater strength. Fear it not, for this we will endure and also love.

Absolutely nothing in my life did I do without all my hand to do so. When I spoke truth, I spoke it 100 percent. When I lied, I lied with everything in me. When I worked, I worked at full speed and when I was lazy I took laziness to a definitive level. When I loved, I loved with passion beyond every possible manner known before me, and when I hated, I did destroy with everything in my heart. Even apathy did I define with precision

When I created, I did so beyond what was required and when I destroyed I left all to dust. When I chose to be righteous, I gave all honor and humility and truth to the path of righteousness and when I chose to be wicked and horrible I was as evil and sinister as I could discover in the pits if the abyss.

I did not play at the seeking of life.
I did not play at the seeking of death.

I stood before giants and challenged them without fear and with terror set before them. I stood before ruthless men and confronted them fearlessly and with horror rewarding them. I stood before the weak and made myself a fool and stupid and a laughing stock to them. I stood before the ugly and unwanted and made myself uglier in every way and worthy of being unwanted. Great and powerful men, some of the world’s strongest, have called me councillor and friend and even lord. And the lowest and pitiful men have called me worthless and worthy of nothing. Not because I was great at all or worthless at all, but that I wished to know the path of each did I play at both.

Not one thing I did, did I do unknowing. I did hurt many, deceived many, hid myself from large groups and drank in life in every folly until I myself did die more than once. Even by my own hand did I run to death to see his face. I have loved both the evil and the righteous and I have hated both the evil and the righteous. All these things I did, for I trusted no one, not even God.

And when I amend for the terrible affect of myself to others, did I do so with absolute honesty in heart. For many have suffered at my hand and just as many had prospered at the spirit of God’s grace within me. And when I rose, I rose far above my station, and when I fell did I fall directly into the hands of the darkness I could not escape.

I went to all ends of every spectrum I could find, and made myself prisoner and made myself free.

This one saying is true; the greater the pride that is found, the greater the coward and fear do we witness.

So fear not anything. For every single time we rise and every single time we fall is there ONE always with us, and that one is God, and God cannot be made a fool, nor can be made to un-love us. Even in our cursing of God does God love us, for man himself can be of such grace and God Himself is the grace found in men.

Even in our disbelief of God is God there, for we did not form ourselves nor do we set our graves. Indeed no amount of denial have you denied, for all of us know we deny what is true within us. Every one of us knows we have chosen to deny what is life because we fear what is death. I have not met one who is not aware, even the deepest self denial triggers unwarranted wrath without cause, which cannot be justified to self. It is all a lie we hope is believed.

Fear nothing, for we have but this moment and nothing more. We have this life in these bones and we shall not have THIS life again. Be bold, and encouraged and fearless and strong. Be not afraid of sorrow or isolation or doom for it is a boogeyman that cannot kill you. It can only lie to you that you have lost and should suffer. But he who is surrounded by many has only the exact same moment as he who is surrounded by nothing. And both are with God and is made aware to God, which is all that is true and forever and everlasting, and life itself. For God IS life, and God is death, and heaven and hell both belong to God. Death is not evil, but transformation to new life – as one moment passes away into another born moment do we experience. Second after second after minute and hour.

Fear nothing, for fear is the greater darkness which hides you from life. Fear removes all choice, which is your sovereign right. We have no greater enemy than fear. Nothing can take life but the lie of fear. Fear has always been a lie, and shall always be a lie. And he who denies truth is in terrible bondage of fear.

I am nothing but an explorer, flawed and silly and ignorant as any man. And Life is the journey of exploration into a new dawn of our own awakening to the love of God that gave us all these experiences so that we may live and choose with understanding and wisdom.

Ryan o0o